.shyrarahmn.

...

2011-12-01T16:59:00.002+08:00

"....that deep stab in your heart when you stumble upon a picture of what could be, and you suddenly feel like

you're breathing in water, yet you have to pretend everything is okay, and continue being wonder woman, because the world doesn't stop just because your heart popped..."

.wink.

.bluek.

2011-11-13T16:01:00.003+08:00

men are all lame

saying what's inside is all that matter when it comes to picking up life partner. stop giving out those excuses.

seriously, you guys wont even care to peek what's inside if you are not tempted with the outside already.

am i wrong?

.liars forfeit.

^_^

2011-11-08T07:01:00.002+08:00

there is no other place to ask for a mood booster other than ALLAH

and because of HIM, i am able to breathe again today

thank YOU

stay positive
who cares if i've got eyebags for not sleeping overnight

.wink.

-_-

2011-11-08T04:00:00.008+08:00

you realize that is definitely something wrong going on when

your eyes still widely open even after 3 hours trying to sleep

you know that you are super tired but your body refuse to rest

your mind tells you to sleep knowing that you have a lecture early tomorrow morning, still your body refuse to

the books widely open on the study table, yet you choose not to read them

lastly, when you find internet surfing is the most boring activity to do

oh, i need an urgent mood booster
STAT

.oh.

2011-11-08T00:53:00.000+08:00

DSM-IV-TR

page 168

criteria A

yup.

i fulfilled 3 out of 9

...

2011-11-07T17:10:00.003+08:00

.life is now full with worries and regrets.

.good feelings.

2011-10-30T12:44:00.004+08:00

new semester 8 starts tomorrow

have a good feeling about psychiatry

will enjoy it just like beloved orthopedic

semester 7 results haven't come out yet

huhu

cepat la akak office

hehe

.wink.

.paris.

2011-10-26T21:26:00.004+08:00

frankly, i have this list that i have been doing since high school where i write things that i would love to do when i get married. call me cliche, there are certain things that have to be done with that special someone instead of a bunch of awesome friends. for example a simple vacation in paris. it is a city of love for god love sake, doesnt it make more sense to go there with someone i love? haha...it doesn't mean that i dont love my friends...ahhhhhh...camane nk explain ni..cess!

.wink.

.tiago iorc.

2011-10-26T17:02:00.002+08:00

.new crush.

.captivated by all his songs.

.wink.

.boyfriends.

2011-10-26T16:55:00.001+08:00

total kpop fandom moment

ignore if you are not in favor

two favourite boyfriends forever

haha

aaaahhhhhhhhhhh

.deep in SuJu fangirling moment.

suare sulli dlm lagu heechul tu sdp pulak dengar

.wink.

.reflection.

2011-10-25T12:33:00.003+08:00

you spend most time trying to figure out why you can never figure out

just what you're trying to figure out, spend more time living

you spend most time searching for the love that'll be searching for your love

you love to save your love for love, spend more time loving

you spend most time talking 'bout yourself and how it matters to your self

more than to anybody else, spend more time listening

you spend most time judging everything as if you ever knew a thing

there's more to things than just one thing, spend more time respecting

you spend most time worried 'bout what's to say about your silly little ways

isn't that silly, anyway? spend more time flowing

you spend most time fussing, bluffing, hating all times

bleeding..

final exam has ended

praying for the best results for me and for all too

steal a lil time to reflect myself during this short holiday

others should do so too

since only a year and half left towards the hectic working life

enjoying the ample free time because i might not have this so frequent in the future

.wink.

.no wonder.

2011-10-12T14:11:00.001+08:00

read this

and now i know why i enjoy orthopedic posting so much

ignore the stupid immature way of writing a blog post

that was posted 3 years ago

now

really really really have to go back to my book and study

.wink.

.mature.

2011-10-12T14:07:00.000+08:00

weird now that i realized my blog is becoming a place where i put up my opinion on everything

if you were reading my blog posts back in the years i first started blogging..

it is either me transforming to becoming a more boring person posting up things like politic and philosophy

or just what i call plain mature

okay

now, really really have to go back to my desk and study

.wink.

.politic.

2011-10-12T13:52:00.001+08:00

just finished reading this one blog regarding how much allowances that our prime minister get every month

yup2 its a lot.super a lot

conclusion :

" wise men do not blame others on what they do not afford to earn, but look deep into themselves and find effort to earn what they cant afford before "

simply put, kenapa la nk sibuk bising-bising kate PM tu makan duit rakyat

itu antara die dgn tuhan

nak kaya macam die jugak, jadi PM la

my late father once said,

" politic is the only thing that you hate, but still wanting to hear about it "

ini selingan tengah sibuk study week ni

now, back to work

.wink.

.checklist.

2011-10-10T13:26:00.000+08:00

its study week

mind the lousy ugly handwriting

to revise all that within a week

good luck

.wink.

~_~

2011-10-10T11:06:00.002+08:00

to,
you

" never mind i'll find someone like you

i wish nothing but the best for you, too... "

from,

.wink.

.perfection.

2011-10-04T19:05:00.000+08:00

" aim at PERFECTION in everything, though in most, it is unattainable. However, they who aim at it, and persevere, will come much nearer to IT than those whose laziness and despondency make them give it up as unattainable "

haven't you heard of

" aim for the moon, even if you fail to catch it, at least you will be one of the stars "

there is nothing wrong in hoping and dreaming for the best as long as you work for it

the failure will feel much more sweeter rather than fail because you not trying hard enough

.wink.

.apologizing.

2011-10-01T19:36:00.001+08:00

" apologizing does not mean that you are wrong and the other person is right,

It means you value your relationship more than your ego "

so, to you

am truly sorry

.wink.

.pretending.

2011-09-29T21:32:00.004+08:00

i like to pretend that everything is alright.

cause sometimes ignoring the problems is actually a wise way to solve it.

i like to pretend that everything is alright.

cause when everybody else thinks i am fine, sometimes i forget that i am not.

if i am laughing loudly in front of you, i might be just bluffing
and actually crying my hearts out behind you

.wink.

.its raining.

2011-09-26T23:44:00.005+08:00

.i am a nobody trying hard to be somebody so i can stand next to your body without being a total nobody.

the eyes are getting heavy and heavier by the seconds while studying, open up the windows widely and realized how i love the smell of rain
... and the rain reminds me of the night he left his youngest girl forever four years ago

.wink.

.the song.

2011-09-26T21:48:00.002+08:00

its a little bit funny this feeling inside

im not one of those who can easily hide

i dont have much money but boy if i did

id buy you big house where we both could live

if i was a sculptor, but then again, no

or a girl who makes potions in a travelling show

i know its not much but its the best i can do

my gift is my song and this one is for you

.wink.

.late night scribble.

2011-09-23T02:14:00.007+08:00

yup

two o'clock in the morning and i cant sleep

despite having a lecture at 7am tomorrow morning means i have to walk out from my room at least at 6.45 am

sharp at twelve i already preparing to sleep on my bed, turned off the light, wore my precious night time cardigan because i have no blanket to use since i have sent it home to my mom to wash it last week..ok pemalas nk basuh sendiri..kantoi

suddenly my stomach growling, terpaksa la makan

then after makan, mane boleh baring terus, thus i tak boleh tido balik la

huhu

since, the final exam is just 3 weeks away from now, decided to finally open up the past years exam questions to try out some questions. boring. then, did some blog walking. reading people thoughts and predicting their behaviour always been one of my hobbies. back in those days when i have pleasure free time, i love to sit alone in cafe sipping hot coffee at shopping mall doing the same thing. but obviously i do not have that privilege of time anymore, thus blog walking comes in. aware or not, those people who writes taught me a lot. the good things and vice versa.

what i write reflects what kind of person i am. and because of that, writing is definitely a work that i seriously put caution in. more important, when the writings are being publish for world to read. some just do not aware of that. me myself had done a lot of stupid posts back in the years i first started blogging, but people grow up and mature. maturity. how you write shows level of your maturity. and a post with tons of rude and inappropriate words will definitely put you down the level.

there is nothing wrong to write what you feels, how angry you are, how happy you are, how sad you are, how depressed you are. this is all about manner. if talking to people needs certain level of mannerism, what makes you thinks that writing does not? i might not be the person with the best manner, but at least i know my limitations.

i pissed off everytime i go shopping, want to pay my stuff at the counter, smiles widely to the cashier and she does not smiles at me in return.

i pissed off everytime i accidently bump to people, i apologize but that particular person does not even look at my face.

i pissed off everytime i see another student disturbing seriously ill patients on ventilator in the ward and still wanting to do physical examination on them.

i pissed off everytime any of my groupmate does not come for teaching or lecture , and we who are present being scolded by the doctor because she is not coming.

yup. i got pissed off easily and everyday. but you do not see me not smiling and writing silly rude things on my blog didnt you? everything got its limitation, same goes for blogging.

.just an opinion.

.back to studying, might not be sleeping tonight.
.and yes, sorry for the broken english.

.wink.

^_^

2011-09-20T20:00:00.001+08:00

week 6 of orthopedic posting

yup2

still lovin it

.wink.

boarding.school.girls

2011-09-12T22:17:00.006+08:00

finally

me and my fellow awesome spine teammates done with our backpain seminar presentation that had been postponed three times already since before raya

people may not realize, but seriously when you are just in the right mood to give your hearts all out and getting all nervous to present your topic in front of the class and the specialist

suddenly, the seminar being cancel

wahhh!! rase cam potong stim je.

damn irritating

and imagine i have been experiencing that for three times

one interesting story today

in the middle of me presenting my part in the seminar

suddenly

mr A: wait..dulu sekolah mane?

me: err..MRSM?

mr A: patutla..

me and the rest of the students: huh?

mr A: no. you are just like a typical boarding school students. they tend to speak english in accent, especially the girls. but the grammar is haywire.i dont understand.
(mr A and the whole class laughing)

i was like what??

ape salah saya budak MRSM?

but i do admit my grammar is haywire

but sesungguhnya mr A

i am NOT making up my accent

it is just something that come out from my vocal chord without me realizing

.wink.

2011-09-03T22:55:00.001+08:00

i am far from beautiful

away from intelligent

distance from wealthy

only one is sure

i am me and i love being me

.wink.

wish =p

2011-08-23T06:40:00.003+08:00

day 12 of posting

still loving it

day 23 of ramadhan

catching up the last bits of barakah

happy eid people!

is it too early to wish

hehe

who cares

.wink.

.love.

2011-08-12T20:50:00.002+08:00

day 5 of posting

ohh

.i LOVE orthopedic.

.wink.

.simple.

2011-08-04T14:26:00.001+08:00

random fandom towards super junior

those whose not in favor of kpop

dont say a word, just click the 'close tab' button

oh, falling for that blondie all over again
still my fav would be Y, walkin', memories and sunflower

.wink.

.paediatric.

2011-08-02T18:18:00.009+08:00

inspired by a friend who did a wonderful guideline for orthopaedic postings that i find really helpful, so i came out with this for her instead =)

Introduction

This is a solely random attempt of me as a graduate of 8 weeks paediatric posting of my precious fourth year of medical school in beloved universiti kebangsaan

Malaysia

. Bear in mind that this is not officially accredited guideline, so do mix and match it up with your preference and daily life activities.

That first day,
My advise to people who not good with children like myself, you might want to start practicing your aegyo (aegyo means cuteness). Stay positive and smile =)) and remember patience is everything when it comes to examining paediatric patients.

Briefing
Where : Seminar room, Paediatric department, level 4 ppukm.
Time : Just be there by 8 c'clock.

Advise again, better walk out from your beloved hostel room early because the department is quite hard to find for first-timers. You have to enter a door just before paediatrics ward 4A’s door. Once you enter the door, you will encounter another 2 more doors, then you will see the sign stated ‘Paediatric Department’. Sound tricky right? Just be there early, so you wont be late even if you get lost.

Briefing will be given by Prof Wong, the posting coordinator and he will ask for volunteer to be the posting leader. When I say volunteer, I mean any responsible people to raise his/her hand and said “I will be the posting leader, prof!” enthusiastically. Otherwise, he will just point out anybody who looks like anwar ibrahim to be one within 2 seconds. Seriously, that exactly what happened to our group.

For all 8 weeks of this posting, you will be sorted and rotated by groups to undergo NICU (2 weeks) – HKL (4/5 weeks) – Kajang Hosp. (1 week)

Each group will have their own supervisor which will be giving teaching for one time every week. And every week also, every group will have their own teaching with any of the external lecturers from HKL or Kajang Hosp.

So sum up, you will be having teaching for at least twice per week.

General Schedule: Monday – Wedsnesday will be allocated for NICU/HKL/Kajang Hosp.

Thursday will be for PBL

Friday will be for seminar and radiology conferences.

Neonatal ICU (NICU)

Two weeks rotation. NICU located just opposite the labour room on level 1 ppukm. First thing to do when you enter the NICU, go and wear the blue shirt then wash your hands with aseptic technique. 2 groups will be allocated in NICU for every rotation. Just play osom or what-so-ever-game to determine which group will be under Prof Cheah and the other will be under Prof Rohana. Both of them are equally strict in their own way, so dont be picky. Aseptic technique are super important in paediatric posting, you have to scrub your hand with the alcohol rub everytime you enter a different baby cubicles.

Ward rounds: grand wardrounds will be on teusday with Prof Boo and Thursday with Prof Cheah. Still, everyday wardrounds with respective lecturers are compulsory in the morning and evening. Cover the beds, and please always aware where your patients are, because in a blink they will change cubicle as the staff nurses wish.

Post-natal wardround: this is important as this is the only chance for you to learn how to do neonatal examination. Not to mention you have to fill up your logbook for this section as well. The rounds will be held by the MOs responsible for the day. Usually being done in the morning, whether before or after the wardrounds according to the MOs preference. The tricky part is you don’t know when will be the MOs do it, so my suggestions are either search and ask the MOs responsible for it what time they will be doing it and which OnG ward they wil be doing it. The other solution is just go and wait at any of the OnG wards until the MOs come.

Code pink call: everyday 1 MO and 1 HO will be holding the code pink pagers. Simple, get to know who they are, and when the pager beeps, go follow them to the labour room. You will learn about neonatal resuscitation a lot here.

Institut Paediatrik Hospital Kuala Lumpur.

As I stated before, you will only be here from Monday till Wednesday. Wake up super early and board the bus in front of the staff nurse hostel at 7.15 am. You are suppose to be in IPHKL from 8 am till 5 pm. Go to your allocated ward. UKM students only being allowed to enter ward KK4, KK5, KK6 and KK7. the other wards are for UPM students. Every week only one group will be assigned for each ward. What to do there? Clerk patients, exactly what you do in your internal medicine posting last year.

Extra tasks for group leaders:

1. Every time you enter a new ward every Monday, first person that you have to search for is the SISTER (those in blue uniform). Introduce your group to her and they will take you for some brief orientation for every respective ward. This task is SUPER IMPORTANT otherwise you will end up listening to 1 hour motivation lecture especially those in KK7. hahaha.

2. Every Monday, you have to call 2 crucial people for teaching. First, would be your own supervisor and the other one is the external lecturer for that particular week. You will be provided their numbers in handout given to you during the first day briefing in the department.

All the external lecturers are SUPER NICE (dr yong junina, dr wong, dr lim, dr norliza etc.). Learn as much as you can from them as most of them only teach you once only.

Hospital Kajang

What you will be doing here is exactly like what you do in IPHKL. Kajang Hospital only have one paediatric ward and super a lot housemen. They only allow maximum of 6 students to be in the ward at one time, what you can do is divide your group into two, then do some sort of a rotation. You can go to their library situated just above the emergency department, the library is quite nice (to sleep..haha), but don’t sleep there or you will find the librarian will be looking at you sarcastically.

Extra task for group leader:

Do exactly what you do every Monday. For Kajang Hospital, the external lecturer responsible for teaching will be the one and only Dr Baizura. She is super duper nice, ask her anything and everything or else you will regret later!! haha

Seminar and PBL

Each group will be preparing and presenting according to the topic given in the handout. These will be held at DK2 8am every week.

Extra task for group leaders:

Call the lecturer responsible as early as possible (by right 2 weeks before the presentation) to confirm the topic, time, venue and etc.

Radiology conference

It will be held at the radiology department conference room every Friday at 11am. Super nice lectures where you will be exposed to the radiological findings for children. And yes, there will be a quiz by 7^th week. The lectures are super nice, informative and relaxing but don’t sleep!! There are a lot more to learn for only one hour each week.

Log book

Fill them up.

Trick to fill up the log book:

Parameters measuring – everybody have to do five of these. Instead of doing this in ppukm paediatrics clinic (very hard, have to rebut2, not that many patients if you come late, you wont be in ppukm anyway Monday to Wednesday), do it in HKL clinic instead.

Just go to the clinic by small groups of 3 or 4 students, meet the sister and ask for their permission. The sister are nice, they will let you for sure!

Then, go to BILIK TIMBANG, you will fill up that section of logbook within 5 minutes, trust me!

Clinic

nope2..no clinic session at all unless your lecturer invite you in.

Operation Theater
nope2..no OT.

Case Write up

ONE only, choose your case wisely

Shortcase examination

Exactly alike the internal medicine shortcase exam only that it will be held at paediatric ward 4A or 4B ppukm on the last week of posting.

Books

sunflower, for some topics you do need nelson for further reference. And the paediatrics protocol.

Yes, there are a lot to learn. Paediatric posting are exactly alike internal medicine posting only with patients from smaller age group. But always remember, whats common is common!

History taking wise, no different from usual history taking, only that you will be talking to the caretaker/parents instead of your actual patients.

Physical examination wise, no different from what you learn in internal medicine posting, only with slight alteration. You will learn it from your lecturers during teachings.

New skills to acquire are neonatal examination and developmental assessment.

.niece.

Lastly, enjoy your paediatric posting!!

.wink.

.besties.

2011-08-01T15:56:00.006+08:00

there are two types of best friends

one:
the best friends who you're real close to. you see them at least twice a week, maybe more. you talk a lot and catch up on everything.

two:
the best friend you do not talk to as often, but deep down, you'll always know that they are your best friends. they understand you, although they barely see you.

.credit to neachan for the truly meaningful quotes.

.wink.

.reception.

2011-07-25T00:13:00.002+08:00

went to our senior's wedding

semoga berbahagia ke anak cucu

dr fadhli and dr anisah

[brought pen to the reception, too many pictures to be posted..decided to do that later]

so, as courtesy to tuan empunye motokar who drove us to the wedding

amek la pic awak sorang ni dulu

=))

mardi and baby nye

bile kite lak yang nk kawen ni?

.wink.

^_^

2011-07-22T21:28:00.001+08:00

^_^

.wink.

.red alert.

2011-07-20T16:33:00.001+08:00

August 3rd

.return of the superior.

hyuk spazzing starts now!

.wink.

.and he said.

2011-07-19T23:56:00.013+08:00

and he said,

" it is not about being the best, but giving the best to the one who needs it "

nobody want to be lousy, still have a lot to learn

definitely, wont be those at the back anymore

god, please award me with tons of courage
cause to be in front at all times, i surely need those a lot

short case paeds exam next thursday
posting ends in less than two weeks time
loving paediatrics, but not really my cup of tea
honestly, i just prefer to work with grown up i guess

.except the niece.

.wink.

.pen.

2011-07-17T17:21:00.003+08:00

new camera for hari raya

haha

.wink.

.prescriptions.

2011-07-02T22:36:00.005+08:00

sprained my right ankle for dont know how many time already this year

i came to suspect myself having some muscular dystrophy disorder already

even a simple fall enough to make it swell as big as elephant's leg

.huhu.

as usual, went to clinic and met dr yusri who is a good friend of my mom

the funniest part of the meeting were the prescriptions:

1. tab primase tds x 7 days

2. tab ponstan tds x 7 days

3. a strong boyfriend who shaira can hold on while walking

.haha.

only if people sell boyfriend over the counter

cute and funny doctor

.wink.

.가방.

2011-06-26T00:21:00.003+08:00

.grey.pink.beige.brown.black.

i have got them all

and the latest one, red

now i only need

mustard.blue.green.violet

to complete the collection

anyone would like to donate?

.wink.

.kawen.

2011-06-16T23:29:00.003+08:00

lately

dekat ward, member2 dok asyik cite pasal kawen je

tadi naik teksi pon, pakcik teksi dok cite pasal kawen je

TENSION LA!!

.i baru 22 years old okay.

.muda lagi untuk start cite pasal kawen.

.huhu.

.wink.

.babies.

2011-06-08T22:02:00.004+08:00

first posting for this semester

just started my paeds posting last monday

its been 3 days already, and i am currently in neonatal ICU rotation

and i am

SUPER TIRED!!!

try studying nonstop [includes seminar, pbl, NICU ward rounds, post natal rounds, code pink] everyday

i am seriously in need of super multivitamin to gain up more energy

feels like getting old already, reduce effort tolerance

i got tired really easily nowadays

not to mention me having sleeping problem this past few days

.i am in stress.

nonetheless, the babies in wards are super cute and such a stress release sometimes
and paeds posting is actually fun

.fullstop.

.maybe.

2011-05-17T02:08:00.000+08:00

every time she laughs, she hopes he is watching.
not so that he sees her happy, but that maybe, just maybe, he will fall for her smile just as hard as she fell for his.

- anonymous

.juliet.

2011-05-16T01:48:00.002+08:00

call me lame

but who doesnt love love story with happy ending

except the fact that it rarely happens in real world

.wink.

.cute.

2011-05-07T01:41:00.006+08:00

a friend of mine once said that the word CUTE is made only for girls but not for guys.

but if a guy being called CUTE, meaning that particular girl is just not willing to call him HANDSOME because he is just not handsome enough to be call one.

btw, this is what i call HANDSOME

.hahaha.

.wink.

.seru.

2011-05-07T01:28:00.005+08:00

last wedsnesday, i think i promised mizah to post this up but eventually forgot bout it. luckily it just suddenly came up in my mind, thus im writing it now.

last wedsnesday was the happiest day on earth for all medical students of UKM. why? we woke up in the morning just to know that JPA money for the semester is in the our account already. so, mizah and me, right after completing our elective volunteering work in sentul, we went to time square kinda to celebrate the day of getting the money from government once again. haha..eventually, we didnt buy anything and just spent our money on eating chips and popcorns. and we watched movie of course.

decided to watch THOR but the timing wasnt right so we decided to watch malay movie called 'SERU' instead...wait..what?? malay movie?? really? that was exactly mizah's reaction after i suggested it to her. well, i accidentally watched the making of on astro and it seems quite okay. just so you know, i have no problem at all against watching malay movies in cinema. i watched 'jangan pandang belakang', 'jangan tegur', 'cinta', 'sepi' and guess what 'khurafat' as well. most of it of course horror movies, cause i find it more interesting to watch horror movies at cinema rather than downloading it to my lappie. you know the feeling when no one is seating besides you in the hall and the ghost come out...haha

back to 'SERU', seriously people if you guys still wondering why malaysians reluctant to support malay movie. i must this is the perfect example of showing you why. the weird storyline, the super annoying actor and actress, all of it seems out of place. even in first 10 minutes, me and my friend was laughing all the way despite the scene of a girl being possessed by the ghost. they were shouting "mengucap2x", then the other guy was like "astaghfirullah2x"...seriously, do they even know the difference between mengucap and istighfar? and through out 2 hours of the movie, there were not even a single quranic verse being recite. it is a movie made by malay people, starring by all malay actors and actresses, obviously all of them are muslims right? then, doesnt it seems weird that no one in the story even tried to recite any quranic verse or even hold up their hands and pray to god while the ghost was killing everybody in the movie? oohh yes, everybody was killed in the movie even the hero.

but thanks to anwarhadi, i decided not to waste my RM7 and 2 hours of my life just give to negative comments. if i were to be optimistic, i would say it is a unique movie, the camera especially (they did not use the typical third party view, but they give the feeling of viewers are the one holding the camera, if you get what i mean). and the hero is quite good and cute as well =)

so mizah, there you go!

da macam wat movie review pulak dah

.wink.

.drama.

2011-05-05T00:33:00.007+08:00

currently addicted to this

nae maeumi deullini?
can you hear my heart?

just cant stop watching it

long drama series with 30 episodes not really my thing

but since its holiday and i have nothing to do anyway

go google up for the drama synopsis yourself

im just too lazy to explain it here
it is not entirely romance kind of drama but more to type of drama with family values in it as well
just what i like

btw, they are just so cute

loving kim jae won since wonderful life

and dont you think the other guy looks exactly like jung yonghwa?

it is still airing up to episode 10 currently

many more episodes to go

=))

loving this

.wink.

.tearing up.

2011-05-03T02:45:00.002+08:00

it is 3rd of May

HAPPY 59th BIRTHDAY to my ABAH

it has been nearly 4 years without you

so sad to think that you never get the chance to see how far i have came through in my life

so sad to think that you never get the chance to celebrate all the achievements with me

so sad to think you are not here anymore

missing you badly,

your youngest child

.emo2..haha

2011-05-02T01:17:00.002+08:00

[ this post is totally kpop related. so for those who hates kpop, just proceed and click the close tab sign ye]

24:7 malaysian first ever kpop group

pale hotak ko!

sila la google kalau tak tahu lgi pasal mamat2 rempit yang perasan ni

siap kasi name malaysian Kpop group

dah sah2 la K tu stands for Korean

mengong!

buka-buka baju segala

bajet 2PM ar?

kalo putih handsome macho berchocolate abs seperti yang ak da pegi concert 2 kali tu tak pe la juga

[sounds pervert la pula]
buruk sungguh

memalukan

emo la pulak

haha

.wink.

.princess' birthday wishes.

2011-05-01T03:24:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY

PRINCESS EJAT

wahh!! princess tau..ala-ala kate middleton..

just so you know, ini pictures zaman kurus dulu yang sebenarnye tak de la kurus mane pon..

ejat, miss you~

wish you a very wonderful year ahead

and cepat kahwin...hahahaha...apekah??

.wink.

.age.

2011-04-30T13:42:00.001+08:00

during a fine evening tuition class,

i was teaching student A when mizah suddenly came and stood behind me

student A: akak ( referring to me), akak (referring tu mizah) ni adik akak ke?
mizah: ahahahaha!!!
me: tak la..kawan, cube teka umur kitorang berape?
student A: 28!
me and mizah: WTH???
student B: eh tak2..akak ni (referring to mizah) 19.
me: what?? kitorang 22 la..

humph~~

.wink.

.sweet.

2011-04-27T12:57:00.001+08:00

if i cant give you the sun, i will be the sun for you

if i cant bring you the moon, i will shine my love on you

if cant give you the rain, to hide your silent tears

well, i'll be the gentle wind to blow away your fears..

" on this day" by kayant

a friend of mine, self-composed song for his girlfriend's birthday

so sweet~

.wink.

.pretend.

2011-04-26T21:56:00.002+08:00

i like to pretend that everything is alright.

cause when everybody else thinks you are fine,

sometimes you forget for a while that you are not.

.wink.

elective.day.one

2011-04-25T19:44:00.003+08:00

who knows teaching standard 3 kids were tiring. they fought with each other. they shouted to each other. they cannot remain seated for even 5 minutes. in the end, had to held quiz session to keep them seated and promised to buy chocolates for the winners.

good practice on how to handle kids before paediatrics posting, i guess

.optimistic mode.

.wink.

.confession.

2011-04-25T12:47:00.001+08:00

expecting more than these?

.you wish.

.wink.

.crush.

2011-04-24T15:07:00.002+08:00

.how i wish i can kick you out of my friggin mind.

.wink.

holiday post #5

2011-04-20T00:53:00.005+08:00

today spent my whole day outside

morning

i spent my morning with beloved mizah went to the place that we have decided to do our elective posting in sentul. guess what? we will be primary school kids volunteer tuition teachers and will be teaching mathematics and bahasa malaysia

totally, have to start memorizing multiplication table again and studying tatabahasa again!

afternoon - evening

right after that, we went straight to klcc. had lunch, kinokuniya, chit-chating in the garden, watched SCRE4M, had waffle ice-cream while gossiping again. i am totally surprise knowing that i am being so ignorance through my 3rd year in ppukm. i did not even know the latest gossips among my coursemate..haha..thanks to mizah for keeping me updated. focussing on studying too much i guess..

night

went back to beloved KTDI. nothing to do, just lepak-ing at mizah's place while waiting for my mom to fetch me up.

.wink.

holiday post #4

2011-04-14T23:44:00.007+08:00

a friend of mine said,

"Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down"

i replied,

"why test people around you? to check whether they are faithful enough? to know who will stay right besides you during your difficult hours? is that really important compared to just being grateful to know that you have lots of people around to make up a wonderful life. the wall which you think might pull people closer to you, just might be the very same wall that push people who you appreciate away. then, you'll left with regrets..."

.wink.

holiday post #3

2011-04-14T22:59:00.009+08:00

ONE:

will be babysitting my one and only niece, baby afriena for two weeks. my sis have to go for work courses in taiping in a min while, so from now on you can call me "aunty ira"~

haha

TWO:

as i strolled around the fashion blogshops during my bored-no-money-to-spend-holiday, i stumbled upon this blogshop. quite cool. click this TheSurvivalStore, then straightly click the bags shortcut and WALLAAA!! people, if you want to buy me presents, you can just pick any of that bags and post it up to me.

THREE:

as i strolled around again my favourite-must-visit-everyday website named youtube, found these awesome guys. well, for those who knows me well enough, they would totally know that i have kind a soft heart towards guy with music instruments (guitar, piano and stuffs). so obviously, fell in love with their musics at first ~~sight~~ listen. they are ridiculously talented. please do listen to them singing my favourite song of all time. i wish i can play this song (not me playing the piano cause obviously i dont know how to, haha..using cd la i mean) during my dont-know-when-or with-who wedding in the future instead of the typical selamat pengantin baru song..lmao~

.wink.

holiday post #2

2011-04-11T23:37:00.003+08:00

me: ma, saye lulus exam =)

mama: terima kasih anak mama sebab dari kecik sampai besar tak pernah susahkan hati mama.

*terharu*

rase macam nak nangis, tapi cepat2 pegi toilet, nk cover punye psl

haha

i am officially 4th year medical student now

another 2 years to go to be a qualified doctor

*thinking*

am i ready for that yet?

.wink.

holiday post #1

2011-04-10T21:47:00.003+08:00

day 4 of long semester break and i am bored to death. damn got nothing to do that i have to distract myself from cooking and eat my own cooking by reading the pre clinical lecture notes. exam result might be out by tomorrow evening according to my batchmates, latest by tuesday morning.hmmm....cuak? for sure la kn!!! tak pernah tak cuak tunggu result okey. more concern about my JKM posting result rather than internal medicine paper. i think i did my JKM paper badly. lets hope for the best, otherwise it wont be a long holiday.

and for elective posting, planning to volunteer at petrosains, might as well continue volunteering even after i finished the elective posting if everything goes well. im not sure whether i can do this alone, im not really a 'person' type of person if you understand what im trying to say here. haha. having some friends to do it together would be great as well. anybody interested to come and join me? click this link if anybody do interested and contact me please. anyhow, will wait for the exam results first, only then start doing all the planning and works for elective.

back to my boring holiday and metabolism notes

.wink.

.title-less.

2011-04-04T04:26:00.003+08:00

its fourth April 2011. its 4 am in the morning and im still not sleeping, perhaps due to excessive sleep i had during evening yesterday...hehe....another one day till the osce exam for JKM posting followed by medicine posting's osce the day after and of course, being my lazy self as usual i still not done studying.

'you will never feel ready for exam till the minute you enter the exam hall'

yang best bout medicine and JKM postings' osce is that there will be no man station except for ppd station =) well, haven't said that all medical students are good actors and actresses when it comes to ppd. persuading people, acting all responsible and professional are totally our thing you know..hehe..tak caye?? naseb ar kalo tak nak caye.. haha..lastly, being an e.l.f my self, i would like to dedicate this post to my precious bias

ITS YOUR 26th BIRTHDAY, eunhyukie!!!

=)))))

.wink.

.friend.and.ship.

2011-03-23T01:02:00.005+08:00

saye tak sempurna. in fact, takde sape dalam dunia ni yang sempurna. oleh sebab saye tahu saye tak sempurna bila saye terasa hati atau marah dengan sesape je la disekeliling saye. saye seboleh-bolehnya nak sorok perasaan tu diam-diam dalam hati. maafkan orang yang berkenaan dan lupekan je. walaupun kadang-kadang terlepas jugak kata-kata yang tak berapa sedap di dengar dari mulut saye. sengaja nak menyusahkan orang. sengaja nak menyakitkan hati orang. itu bukan saye. in fact, takde sape dalam dunia ni sesuka je nak menyakitkan orang lain melainkan itu hobi die. sebab tu la saye cukup tak suke bile ade orang-orang yang tak puas hati dengan sesape je la dalam hidup die, mula la nak tulis dalam blog la, status facebook yang pelik-pelik la. yang best nye adalah sume post-post tu di anonymouskan [sebenarnye saye pon dulu macam ni..tapi bile difikir-fikir balik..akibat nye lebih yang tak elok daripada yang elok] hmm...kalau x puas hati sangat, tulis je la terus kepada yang berkenaan. takde la orang yang tak berkenaan tibe-tibe terasa hati [ingatkan orang tu tulis pasal die, maklumlah ade certain orang yang terlebih sensitif] ataupun orang yang mungkin berkenaan tertanye-tanye...aku ke??die tulis pasal ak ke?? tapi kadang-kadang, certain things better kept as secrets kan?? in order to keep the relatioship (i.e friendship) tapi ape gune konon-kononnye nak jage friendship tu. tapi dalam hati ade perasaan yang tak puas hati, bukan tak ikhlas berkawan name nye tu. kalau ikhlas dan jujur nak berkawan, tak ke kite patut tegur kawan kte bile die buat bende yang salah. instead of simpan je perasaan tu, biar je kawan kte tu terus buat salah, sebab obviously, kalau die tahu die salah die tak kan buat kan, pastu kite dok tulis la macam-macam seperti yang sye cerita kat atas tadi dengan harapan kawan kte yang salah tu terbace la post tu dan berubah. tak ke friendship tu nanti akan jadi lebih awkward. ini bukan la dipetik dari mane artikel ke ape. ini jujur terus dari hati sye sendiri. hundred percent pendapat saye sendiri. ini juge merangkap peringatan kepada diri sendiri juge. takde kena mengena dengan sesape pon. oke..ni da start merapek. stress la study week ni.. sampai boleh terpikir bende bukan-bukan. tetibe tulis dalam malay pulak...hehe... continue.study..go.go.go

.wink.

Super.Blast

2011-03-20T00:06:00.004+08:00

well people

its been a very long time since last i posted anything here

too many things happening yet too little time to write and tell

firstly, my trip to japan which supposed to be on this April already being postpone to a date that me myself don't know when

heartbreaking

[praying for japan...]

and i just got back from SuperShow III

it was a super duper blast just like last year

since i will definitely be infected by SuJu fever for couple of weeks, this

'self-taken-eunhyuk-and-donghae-so-damn-close-in-front-of-me-yet-my-hands-are-not-long-enough-to-touch-them'

[what a long picture title..]

will be desktop background starting tonight until i bored looking at them

i am an E.L.F

ooppss...did i mention its study week now?

haha
my final exam is next week!!

.wink.

.winking.

2011-01-11T02:01:00.002+08:00

current mood

excited

suddenly im being reminded by my best roomie dba bout our coming trip to 'there' in april. haha. first thing, i did was googling the best places to shop 'there'.omo..i am so excited i might sleep while smiling for the whole week! and my new fav songs are cn blue japanese singles..how ironic is that??

ok2.enough.

curious where is actually 'there'??

haha

cant wait to watch last 2 episodes of secret garden

cant wait to watch next episodes of my princess

.wink.

princess.fantasy

2011-01-07T22:17:00.001+08:00

My Princess best!

(sbb ade song seung hun hot!)

.wink.

.mushiness.

2011-01-06T00:35:00.001+08:00

.sometimes.

i just do not get this

am i being ignorant

you are the one who is being damn mushy

.sometimes.

saying things out loud is way better than keeping it to oneself

it hurts when we definitely aware that there are things going on

but not knowing what the things are

just.a.thougt.of.mine

.wink.

best.kept.secret

2010-12-24T23:24:00.004+08:00

one thing i learned few years back. one thing will i never forget. one thing i shall not do. one thing i must refrain myself from doing.

c.o.n.f.e.s.s.i.o.n

.certain things are best kept as secret.

.wink.

the mortar board and red robe

2010-12-07T20:43:00.001+08:00

hehe..

went to accompanied my mom for brother's convocation for second time

[first time when he got his diploma years ago]

saw the mortar board i was wearing?

hope can wear it again with stunning red robe

and take pictures in front of DECTAR

with beloved family

and friends in two years time

.wink.

a.long.week

2010-12-02T23:58:00.001+08:00

hhmmm..

i had the longest week upon

English Speaking Zone Ninght will be held tomorrow night

hopefully everything will goes well or i will never want to be a protocol exco ever again

haha

made a very simple and stupid looking flash vid by myself within one night

hope it will not look damn amateur

watch these two now

and loving both of it

.wink.

.happy.

2010-11-16T14:00:00.001+08:00

today is much more productive than yesterday

hehe

finally got directions and understand how internal medicine posting works

followed Prof Sue's teaching and learn a LOT!!

and she's not even my supervisor

followed ward round by Dr Sharifah and learn another whole lot things

and im loving her

.starting to like medicine.

am going back home today

and i passed my obs and gynae as well as surgery posting

yeah!!!!

~wink~

start.anew.again

2010-11-15T01:12:00.002+08:00

tomorrow will be a new beginning for a new posting and for a new semester as well

last semester exam result will be out tomorrow

and i can definitely feel butterflies start to fly happily inside my stomach

anxious much??

.very.

i must say obs and gynae as well as surgery aren't kind of posting that students can pass easily

really hoping that i wont have to spent final semester break with 3 weeks short

[3 weeks is the period of the repeat posting if were to fail any posting]

tomorrow will start with internal medicine posting

new semester resolutions includes

.at least one long case per day.

.cover at least one long case for every system per week.

.study harder.

.more hardworking.

.JIMAT.

.dieting.

[i have gain too much already]

~wink~

.differences.

2010-11-11T13:24:00.002+08:00

.simple.

YOU and i are obviously different

it is expected for both of us to have very different interest

theres no need for you to say bad things bout my passion

cause deep inside

quitely

i also think of the same bad things bout yours

so live with it

i l.i.k.e kpop

~wink~

ready.set.go!

2010-11-10T22:44:00.004+08:00

well

bersedia untuk next posting

oh!

im seriously sucks at neurosciences

~wink~

.doraemon.

2010-11-06T01:02:00.000+08:00

doraemon

i really want to step into your time travelling drawer back to my senior years of high school

where i have stable hormone circulation in my body that prevent my bad eating habit and keep my body in a good slim shape

.minus the love life and some other private matters.

.just strictly physical.

.tq.

~wink~

peak.of.the.hill

2010-11-05T20:37:00.005+08:00

yup

yes

we went hiking at broga hill last thursday

i totally wear wrong outfit for hiking

haha..

the best way to celebrate end of exam ever

.no money used.

.draining all of our excessive unused ATPs.

.lose weight??.

love it

should do it more often girls

went hiking with my left ankle bandaged and swollen

.not good.

photos are credit to fuyuki, waE, qeeda and fzah

~wink~

great.way.to.end.an.exam

2010-11-02T07:08:00.000+08:00

what a great way to end an exam

well

i finished my very last surgery osce yesterday morning

excitedly went to midvalley with dearest housemate diba

.watched a movie.

[ooo..josh duhamel..I LOVE YOU]

.bought a jeans.

.bought a pair of shoes.

.bought a top.

.bought a cardigan.

and

.bought something for my mother.

the best part was, i got my ankle 'terseliuh'

luckily it was not really painful back then

one day later

it became oedematous

extremely painful

there goes my friends and my plan to go to broga hill this thursday to watch sunrise

currently, my left ankle look as big as the man's leg who has elephantitis in the pathology book

okay

that is a bit exaggerating

but seriously

the pain is unbearable

i might get DVT

.haha.

anyway

happy holiday

~wink~

l.u.c.k

2010-10-24T07:07:00.000+08:00

sunday morning

rain is falling

tomorrow first paper for final

surgery

obs and gynae on tues

wish me luck

lately asyik borak pasal kawen je ngn housemates

gatal sungguh

good luck sume

~wink~

i.am.reposting.this.just.for.YOU

2010-10-15T10:23:00.001+08:00

apparently, there was people who missed this post.
it is damn important and i need YOU to read this.

if you ever notice

i never mention any names inside any of my post

this is what i call confidentiality okey

i am writing bout things that happen in my life

and thats definitely include a lots of people around me

i do not simply write any names for a reason

im trying my best to avoid misunderstanding

cause

i am voicing out my opinion and feelings

and i do not expect for everybody to agree with it

well

for people who are close enough to me

i guess you can actually figure out who am i talking about

but please

before actually revealing the names in my comment box

could you actually think the consequences first

i do not want to ruin any of my friendship with any of my friend

and dont you ever think that 'he' might read my blog?

hope.you.will.understand

~wink~

i.moved.on

2010-10-12T02:04:00.001+08:00

.empty.

its been empty for four years already

shitty if i said i am truly fine with it

cause i am not

him

girlfriend

being dumped

ex-girlfriend

got a girlfriend again

.lucky.

he is lucky

god really makes it easy for some person

not me

i am starting to sound desperate

aint i?

haha

.you know what.

i moved on

i am gonna let it empty

until the perfect one and only knocks the door

.who.
only the god knows who

.when.

only the god knows when

final exam in two weeks time

sorry

.stress makes me mellow.

.huhu.

~wink~

you.may.say.im.a.dreamer

2010-10-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

oh genie

i wish i am so rich that i can travel anywhere in the world whenever i like without worries.

how i wish~~~

.wink.

bye.bye.for.now

2010-10-03T21:18:00.001+08:00

selamat tinggal

kepada

Sungkyunkwan Scandal

Playful Kiss

My Girlfriend is a Gumiho

Baker King

Goguma Couple

saye nk exam another 3 weeks

sila faham

saye kena focus belajar

namun begitu, OST-OST anda akan tetap menemani saye

[KBS World channel 303 ~~dah xde da~~!!! tapi ade channel 393 SBS sebagai pengganti]

correction: according to waE, KBS ade kt channel 391 =)

wakakaka

siapla time holiday nanti

ak layan StarKing je la~~

good luck to me

.wink.

scandal XD

2010-09-20T23:05:00.003+08:00

Current obsessions XD

WARNING: kdrama mode..

so, if anyone yang rase layan kdrama buang mase sila hindari diri anda dari membaca post ini

Sungkyunkwan Scandal

fist time, aim utama layan drama ini bukan kerana heronya
tetapi watak sampingan yang memikat hati dan perasaan

[ye2..yang pertama dari kanan itu =)]

wakaka!!

Song Joong Ki
a.k.a
mc music bank

*drool*

die sgt comel okey!

oohh!!
tidak dilupakan Playful Kiss yang punya Kim Hyun Joong itu
yang itu, saya layan kerna hero nya
dan semata-mata nak cukopkan korum layan every version
japan [drama] - japan [anime] - taiwan - korean
cerite die plus minus je pon

~wink~

first.love

2010-09-08T22:08:00.003+08:00

" The one that you first truly have feelings for. One person that you will never forget, his love will leave an imprint on your heart which will be there forever. "

-definition of first love-

truthfully,

i dont have one

.fullstop.

~wink~

=)))

2010-09-06T17:46:00.006+08:00

ini post xde motif

fangirl.moments

=))

hot.pants

2010-09-04T23:11:00.005+08:00

went out for iftar with my sis wani and my mom today

luckily we came early

so we able to choose the best table there
=p

as time passed 7

the restaurant started to full

full with many kind of people

families, bunch of friends, etc

on the right side of my table was a bunch of young people

they did some gathering between them i guess

i noticed my mom suddenly sighing

then, i saw few malay girls at that table were wearing very short skirt and hot pants

[note: hot pants looks really cute when SNSD are the one whose wearing it

but these girls...hmmm]

table on our left side was occupied by a big family

from atok nenek till the cute baby granddaughter

so sweet

7.24 pm

[azan berkumandang]

me, my sis and my mom started to eat

again my mom sighing

then, i saw ciggarette smokes coming from the table from the right

guess who were smoking?

the girls with short skirts and hot pants just now

[orang buke makan kurma, die buke hisap rokok]

apa.nak.jadi

selamat.hari.raya

maaf.zahir.batin

~wink~

to.anonymous.who.wrote.a.comment.for.my.post.before.this

2010-09-03T20:31:00.003+08:00

if you ever notice

i never mention any names inside any of my post

this is what i call confidentiality okey

i am writing bout things that happen in my life

and thats definitely include a lots of people around me

i do not simply write any names for a reason

im trying my best to avoid misunderstanding

cause

i am voicing out my opinion and feelings

and i do not expect for everybody to agree with it

well

for people who are close enough to me

i guess you can actually figure out who am i talking about

but please

before actually revealing the names in my comment box

could you actually think the consequences first

i do not want to ruin any of my friendship with any of my friend

and dont you ever think that 'he' might read my blog?

hope.you.will.understand

sorry.for.deleting.your.comment

selamat.hari.raya

maaf.zahir.dan.batin

~wink~

serve.you.right

2010-09-01T19:04:00.001+08:00

i liked this one guy

[please note the past tense oke]

he preferred to be just friends

and that definitely i am now to him

.just friends.

he had a girlfriend

the girlfriend dumped him

he pissed off

he talked back to the girl

using inappropriate words

expressing his regrets loving her

and i said

SERVE.YOU.RIGHT

jahat kan saye??

[bukannye dendam ke ape ngan die ni,

but i have right to be mad at person who call me inappropriate names during my school time dulu kan??]

what.goes.around.comes.around

god.is.fair

~wink~

f.u.n.n.y

2010-08-15T01:29:00.001+08:00

it is funny when you need phone reminder to remind you of your birthday right??

totally what just happen to me!!

haha =)

sweet 21 to ME

~wink~

how.rude.a.person.can.be

2010-08-06T22:25:00.001+08:00

being senior doesnt give you a ticket to be rude to your junior

something happen during wardround this morning that truly opened up my eyes

well

everybody knows, in ONG a bed will be covered by at least a 3rd year student and a 5th year student

and when it comes to presenting the case in from of the consultant and the specialist during wardrounds

its either of these two people will be presenting and the one who are not presenting is ought to stand besides the presenter and help him/her if he/she stucks somewhere in the middle of the bedside presentation

this is what happen this morning

as soon as the specialist came,

3rd year : my patient, mdm ****, 26 years old, primigravida presented with

latent phase of labour at EDD + 20 days

specialist: 20 days??

3rd year: ohh??

5th year: 2 days la!! [ emphasizing with annoying voice]

3rd year: ohh...sorry..EDD + 2 days

5th year: [grab the paper from the 3rd year student and rudely said]

meh la akak present!!!

and she continued presenting the case..

that 5th year student might not realize that she was being rude to the fellow 3rd year student

as i saw her laughing right after the presentation

and

that 3rd year student might not feel offended by that 5th year action towards her

as she looked completely fine after that

but for me who was watching the scene

felt that the 5th year senior was rude towards her junior

i am annoyed to death by her action

rase macam nk ketok2 je kepala die and ask her to apologize

pakai jubah, bertudung laboh yet doesnt have good manner

i am not stereotyping anyone here

but

for a person who dress decently like a very religious person

i think highly of this kind of person

and acting rude that way opened my eyes

and sorry to say that

i am no longer have respect towards her

moral of the story: respect everyone would you??

regardless who they are..lecturers, seniors, juniors etc.

~wink~

o.v.e.r

2010-08-02T16:54:00.000+08:00

its O.V.E.R

yyeeeaaahhhh!!!!

[happy mode]

[jumping around in my own room]

~wink~

ong.check.list

2010-07-31T19:00:00.000+08:00

logbook to fill [DONE!]

case and partogram write ups to submit [DONE!]

presentations to perform [ONE MORE WEEK!!]

ward rounds to attend [ONE MORE WEEK!!]

deliveries to conduct [DONE!!]

surgeries and procedures to observe [DONE!]

books and journals to read [ALWAYS HAVE TO..]

lecturers to please [there's no end for this one..hehe]

short case exam this monday~~~

~wink~

countdown.to.heaven

2010-07-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

just another one more week

short case exam on monday

and i am heavenly free from anxiousness

god

i am hoping for a week of happiness and peacefulness

~wink~

t.h.i.n.g.s

2010-07-30T20:37:00.007+08:00

- a tiny floral blouse

- a skinny jeans

- a black skinny slack

- a tote bag

- flats and lots of flats with diff colors

[red, mustard, silver, bronze, navy blue etc.]

- a brown vintage satchel

- a white studded clutch

- a blue wash-out jeans

- an electric blue clutch

- cardigans and lots of cardigans

ehem2x kepada yang berkenaan
next month ye =)
wakakaka!!!

~wink~

b.d.a.y

2010-07-29T19:05:00.001+08:00

how i wish someone would surprise me with a satchel

n.i.n.e.w.e.s.t

ehem2x

~wink~

i.am.sorry

2010-07-24T13:59:00.000+08:00

logbook to fill

case and partogram write ups to submit

presentations to perform

ward rounds to attend

deliveries to conduct

surgeries and procedures to observe

books and journals to read

lecturers to please

short case exam next two week

i need more than 24 hours

dear friend,

terribly sorry

give me another two weeks

and i am done with ong after that

i ll spent time with you after that

babe,

sorry.sorry.sorry

~wink~

she.said

2010-07-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

one of my lecturer said this today:

ever tried

ever failed

no matter

try again

fail again

fail better

~wink~

c.r.i.e.d

2010-07-15T20:04:00.000+08:00

what is left more to give?

stayed up late every night burning oil

waking up even before the birds start chipping

going to that red chamber even before the sun rise

stay in that room surrounded by four red walls till sunset

hanging around disturbing people's belly

waiting and waiting just to listen to babies crying

yet

still

.sigh.

whats more to give

god

make me strong

i really need you

i am not the real me anymore

.sob.

n.o.n.s.e.n.s.e

2010-07-13T18:37:00.000+08:00

simple.

if its annoys you damn much why even bother looking

speaking nonsense about other people

put yourself in their spot

only then you know

how it feels to be left out

like them

~wink~

p.e.o.p.l.e

2010-07-12T22:47:00.001+08:00

sometimes things do not happen the way we want it to be

we think that we are capable of doing things very well

others do not seems to notice it

people arguing about not being picked to do jobs

nice competition

people are 'racing' to get the job done

is not that healthy?

the authority does not seems to notice it
others does not seems to take it seriously

they got what they want already

perhaps

every job has it pays

no job means no pays

they have rights to be anxious

they have rights to be concern

they have rights to be worried

i do not get any yet for now

i even did not get any last time

am i anxious?

yes

am i concern?

yes

am i worried?

yes

did i do my job before so badly that they will not prefer to choose me forever already?

just.thats.it

~wink~

s.m.i.l.e =)

2010-07-07T19:05:00.003+08:00

eyes on hyuk for sure

luv em'

~wink~