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its been months since i last posted anything here
not that many people do read my posts pon

still, it is a way of me channeling my thoughts

currently, i am in a middle of a storm 

a storm which i never thought i would walk in to

but i accidentally walked in

poetic much huh?

simply said, for first time ever, i messed up one the paper on last semester exam

and have to reseat for the paper while everybody else having long almost 2 months holiday

still, who am i to complain? i probably the luckiest among the unlucky

just have to go through just a week of reseat posting and to seat for the exam again a month later

that is more than enough time to study for such a minor posting

and for that, i should be thankful

"when you come out from the storm, you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about" - haruki murakami

"this is just an URTI, should just swallow the cough syrup and move on. life is too short to cry and regret over your own body bad immune system anyway" - shyra rahmn

and sometimes even cough can be productive..see the irony? 

'PRODUCTIVE'

haha

.wink.

...

"....that deep stab in your heart when you stumble upon a picture of what could be, and you suddenly feel like 

you're breathing in water, yet you have to pretend everything is okay, and continue being wonder woman, because the world doesn't stop just because your heart popped..."


.wink.

.bluek.

men are all lame

saying what's inside is all that matter when it comes to picking up life partner. stop giving out those excuses.

seriously, you guys wont even care to peek what's inside if you are not tempted with the outside already.

am i wrong?

.liars forfeit.

^_^

there is no other place to ask for a mood booster other than ALLAH

and because of HIM, i am able to breathe again today

thank YOU

stay positive
who cares if  i've got eyebags for not sleeping overnight

.wink.

-_-

you realize that is definitely something wrong going on when 

your eyes still widely open even after 3 hours trying to sleep

you know that you are super tired but your body refuse to rest

your mind tells you to sleep knowing that you have a lecture early tomorrow morning, still your body refuse to

the books widely open on the study table, yet you choose not to read them

lastly, when you find internet surfing is the most boring activity to do

oh, i need an urgent mood booster
STAT

.oh.

DSM-IV-TR

page 168

criteria A

yup.

i fulfilled 3 out of 9

...

.life is now full with worries and regrets.

.good feelings.

new semester 8 starts tomorrow

have a good feeling about psychiatry

will enjoy it just like beloved orthopedic

semester 7 results haven't come out yet

huhu

cepat la akak office

hehe

.wink.

.paris.

frankly, i have this list that i have been doing since high school where i write things that i would love to do when i get married. call me cliche, there are certain things that have to be done with that special someone instead of a bunch of awesome friends. for example a simple vacation in paris. it is a city of love for god love sake, doesnt it make more sense to go there with someone i love? haha...it doesn't mean that i dont love my friends...ahhhhhh...camane nk explain ni..cess!

.wink.

.tiago iorc.

.new crush.

.captivated by all his songs.

.wink.

.boyfriends.

total kpop fandom moment

ignore if you are not in favor

two favourite boyfriends forever

haha

aaaahhhhhhhhhhh

.deep in SuJu fangirling moment.

suare sulli dlm lagu heechul tu sdp pulak dengar

.wink.

.reflection.

you spend most time trying to figure out why you can never figure out

just what you're trying to figure out, spend more time living

you spend most time searching for the love that'll be searching for your love

you love to save your love for love, spend more time loving

you spend most time talking 'bout yourself and how it matters to your self

more than to anybody else, spend more time listening

you spend most time judging everything as if you ever knew a thing

there's more to things than just one thing, spend more time respecting

you spend most time worried 'bout what's to say about your silly little ways

isn't that silly, anyway? spend more time flowing

you spend most time fussing, bluffing, hating all times

bleeding..

final exam has ended

praying for the best results for me and for all too

steal a lil time to reflect myself during this short holiday

others should do so too

since only a year and half left towards the hectic working life

enjoying the ample free time because i might not have this so frequent in the future

.wink.

.no wonder.

read this

and now i know why i enjoy orthopedic posting so much

ignore the stupid immature way of writing a blog post

that was posted 3 years ago

now

really really really have to go back to my book and study

.wink.

.mature.

weird now that i realized my blog is becoming a place where i put up my opinion on everything

if you were reading my blog posts back in the years i first started blogging..

it is either me transforming to becoming a more boring person posting up things like politic and philosophy 

or just what i call plain mature

okay

now, really really have to go back to my desk and study

.wink.

.politic.

just finished reading this one blog regarding how much allowances that our prime minister get every month

yup2 its a lot.super a lot

conclusion :

" wise men do not blame others on what they do not afford to earn, but look deep into themselves and find effort to earn what they cant afford before "

simply put, kenapa la nk sibuk bising-bising kate PM tu makan duit rakyat

itu antara die dgn tuhan

nak kaya macam die jugak, jadi PM la

my late father once said,

" politic is the only thing that you hate, but still wanting to hear about it "

ini selingan tengah sibuk study week ni

now, back to work

.wink.

.checklist.

its study week

mind the lousy ugly handwriting

to revise all that within a week

good luck

.wink.

~_~

to,
you

" never mind i'll find someone like you

i wish nothing but the best for you, too... "

from,

me

.wink.

.perfection.

" aim at PERFECTION in everything, though in most, it is unattainable. However, they who aim at it, and persevere, will come much nearer to IT than those whose laziness and despondency make them give it up as unattainable " 

haven't you heard of

" aim for the moon, even if you fail to catch it, at least you will be one of the stars "

there is nothing wrong in hoping and dreaming for the best as long as you work for it 

the failure will feel much more sweeter rather than fail because you not trying hard enough

.wink.

.apologizing.

" apologizing does not mean that you are wrong and the other person is right,

It means you value your relationship more than your ego "

so, to you

am truly sorry

.wink.

.pretending.

i like to pretend that everything is alright. 

cause sometimes ignoring the problems is actually a wise way to solve it. 

i like to pretend that everything is alright. 

cause when everybody else thinks i am fine, sometimes i forget that i am not.

if i am laughing loudly in front of you, i might be just bluffing
and actually crying my hearts out behind you

.wink.